“You are led through your lifetime by the inner learning creature, the playful spiritual being that is your real self.
Don't turn away from possible futures before you're certain you don't have anything to learn from them.”

~ Richard Bach, Jonathan Livingston Seagull ~

Monday, November 15, 2010

On Turning 50

Well, here I am at last. After a year spent anticipating and dreading this momentous occasion, it's finally here ~ over and done with. I was half-expecting the light bulb to go off. You know. That magic 'Ah-Ha' moment like Oprah had when she turned 50. But it didn't happen. It didn't come.

Instead I'm left with a feeling of peace and dare I say it, contentment. I'm going into the next phase of my life in a good place. I've found my spirituality and am developing it. I'm no longer obsessed with losing weight to fit into a size 6 bathing suit that quite frankly, would look better on a 20 year old. I'm not as concerned about what other people think of me ~ take me or leave me ~ this is who I am. Material things, while nice, aren't the focus anymore. Decluttering and enjoying what I have and finding new ways to use them is. And relationships, old and new, are more important than ever.

So turning 50 isn't quite as bad as I thought it was going to be. Perhaps the next decade will bring unimaginable success, joy and happiness. And maybe that 'Ah-Ha' moment will come when I turn 60 . . .

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Incipient Wings said...

Well, Happy Birthday!
what a wonderful sense of self you have!
congratulations on finding your bliss, I hope this year brings you everything you wish for.

The Blue Faerie said...

Congratulations & Happy Birthday! It sounds like 50 is a fun age to be - way better than self-conscious 20's. "P

I've been getting looking forward to 30. I look VERY young for my age, and other young looking women have told me that when they turned 30, they felt like they finally looked adult.

But I'll be happy at 29 too. Then I'll be a prime number again!

Plumrose Lane said...

Personally I'm just proud and honored to be among the friends who could wish you a happy 50th! You're a fantastic, dynamic, and wonderful lady with a heart as big as the ocean and I've no doubt your future is filled with love and light ~ ah-ha moments or not!
Love & hugs dear friend♥

Lisa Balazs (Seshat Moon Willow) said...

Happy Birthday!! I just had my 42nd on the 13th. I thought when I turned 40 I was going to be depressed as I've heard so many people are, however, I wasn't, nor am I sad as I get older. I look back on my life and the many roads I took, some I wished I hadn't, but in the end I'm glad I did because I truly love the woman I have become and continue to become. There's something to be said for age and experience, just hope my daughter listen to my guidance a little better than I did my mothers! LOL. I love your blog and thank you so much for stopping by mine. I just posted another bit of info on kitchen witchery. May you be blessed with many more wonderful birthdays!!

Hugs and many blessings
Seshat Moon Willow (LisaKay)